Suicide Awareness and a Singing Meditation

​ Suicide Awareness and a Method to Raise Your Vibration of Hope
 Monday, September 10th is Suicide Global Awareness  Day and September is Suicide Awareness month. 
  It is timely for me because I just learned two people I know committed suicide.  One was a dear friend from college and the other was an acquaintance.  Both were bright creative souls and successful in their chosen fields.  They seemed to have everything to celebrate life and yet they chose to leave this earth plane.   Last week I was mourning my loss and cancelled my weekly facebook live TipTop Tuesday.  It was too painful and I needed time to process ALL those pesky feelings.
Next, I did research. I read that 7 out of 10 suicides are white males.  I will post some links at the end of this blog.  It might be helpful for you.  
Some of you may know I worked with violent offenders in my early thirties.   Homicidal feelings and suicidal feelings are not on the opposite end of the spectrum rather they are the active and receptive actions of the same feelings.   I do not believe that these feelings are the same for each individual.   Some are full of rage, some full of despair, some both.  Some die by their own hand by an act of passion. Others die with a calculated plan of action.   We make a big point of talking about the tragedy and make sure we stress. No one is to blame.  Often including the person that kills themselves, citing emotional or physical imbalances or both. 
I marvel at the idea that no one is to blame.  We are a society of should, do better, guilt and shames.  Yet, suicide gets a pass. I find that fascinating.   We need to ask ourselves, why is that? For each person it might be different.  For me it feels like the “should” of our society encase our spiritual creative being of oneness.  
Easy fix, sing this little snippet of this wonderful uplifting song as a form of meditation.
“This little light of mine, I am going to let it shine.  
On a personal note, I realize that besides feeling suicidal when I am stressed  I feel suicidal when I know I need to change some behavior or outlook.  However, I do not want to go there, and revisit my emotions or past memories.  It feels too overwhelming.  I want to stay status quo.  I want to stay in what I know even if what I know is not peaceful or useful to my life.   It is a push-pull.  The suicidal feelings is my Whole Being's way of saying, "Move forward sister or die. "  I talked to a friend of mine about this and she has gone through the same experience of rebirthing.  When we change it is a form of re-birthing and a part of us dies or fluff off the old, just as a snake sheds their skin to produce an underneath layer of a glorious new skin of survival.
Have A Dazzle of A Day
Here are the links I promised. 
​https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World_Suicide_Prevention_Day
 
https://www.washingtonexaminer.com/opinion/reflections-on-world-suicide-prevention-day
https://www.suicideispreventable.org/
https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/suicide-prevention/index.shtml